Reunion

It's sad that after being off the radar for so long that I have to post something this sad.

CNY is approaching ne? It's just 6 days away.

For me, it's the very precious once in a year where I get to see many of my extended family members. Actually, we're not related by blood. I'm not very sure and have never wanted to ask because I'm afraid I may touch a nerve. So I take things as they are and there's this common understanding that some things need not be verbalised; we know it inside. So, I take it that they're family of my mom's close kampung friends. And every year, this is the only time I really get to meet some of them. My cousin included. She's more introverted and we seldom talk. =(

I go visiting my granny every year...and I get kind of irritated whenever my mom asks if I wanted to go. I want to, although I know I won't have much to talk to her about, and besides I'm not so good at conversing in Cantonese, which is the only dialect my granny speaks. She's really old already and I'm always very afraid that my visit may be the last one *touch wood*

So, I get really pissed off whenever I overhear people talking in the train or wadever that they really don't wanna go visiting/reunion dinners, or that the only reason why they're going visiting is to get the angbaos. Strangely, most of the times, it is the English school people/younger people that I hear saying that. Not trying to stereotype of course.

My gugu/nanny was the one who brought me up. And his son was my childhood playmate. He was just a few years older than me, but he was diagnosed with diabetes in his late teens. And he passed away a few weeks before CNY 4 years ago. Her husband, who suffered a stroke when I was somewhere around 10 years old, passed away a couple of years before. I remember that a few days before he passed away, I received a call from him and my gugu out of the blue. They were just asking me for my Big Bro's hp number...and that was the last time I heard his voice. When I heard of his passing, I thought it was a joke. And it hit me really hard because it was the first time someone close passed away. Furthermore, he was so young. That incident set me thinking, but as time heals all wounds, I got over it a while later.

Now, why am I typing all these?

I got online earlier and recieved a shocking piece of news from my friend - our ex-classmate in JC passed away. She was our first 3-months classmate at SAJC and chose to return to Malaysia after the 3 months because she preferred it there. Although we weren't very close, I remember her as a very nice friend. She was a responsible and confident class rep, someone who was very empathetic to others' feelings, a very true person, very hardworking and down-to-earth. She got into Medicine in university and if this accident hadn't happened, I am very confident that she would make a caring doctor. She was so young. I cannot believe it, really. Last Friday. Just 2 weeks before CNY. Her parents must be hit really hard, to lose a daugther. To lose such a wonderful daugther.

Life is unpredictable.

Anything may happen the next moment.

What have you achieved up to now?

Did you live your life worthwhile?

Did you make full use of every moment?

Have you loved your loved ones?